Chasing Butterflies

It's around Thanksgiving and I figured I should post again, but as I tried to think of a topic to write about, all I could think of was how hard and stressful life can be. I thought of all the hard decisions I've had to make and how I've hurt and how others have hurt in the past while. I knew I didn't want to write about any of that so I almost gave up and decided to pass on writing a blog. Then I made myself think about how it is Thanksgiving. It is a time to be grateful and realize all the blessings I have in my life. I have friends who love and support me. They are always there for me and willing to talk. My roommate is especially wonderful to me. She is always there and ready to help with any little thing I need help with. I have friends back home in Utah that love me and miss me as much as I love and miss them. They are there to help me through hard times. I have a family that also loves and supports me. The minute they hear of anything going wrong in my life t...

I first want to start out with saying that this school year has been amazing. I have learned so much and I cannot wait to learn more for the rest of my time here. Flowers for Algernon  has been amazing. It has touched my life and I am sure it is touching many other people's lives. Being able to interact with mentally disabled people and to get to know them at NOWCAP has been one of the best experiences of my entire life. They have taught me more about life than anyone I have ever met. They are so happy, energetic, honest and full of love. They have made me realize that life IS good. There are always reasons to be happy. This entire experience has affected me so much. I plan on continuing going to NOWCAP and interacting with these people as often as I can. They have a light inside them that they share with everyone they encounter. It truly is amazing. Ok! On to what the title of this blog post is about... Well, this Sunday was Fast and Testimony meeting. (if you aren't LDS...

Ooookkkayyy... I haven't posted in a long, long, long time! This semester has been hecka crazy and hecka insane and hecka stressful and hecka amazing. Ya... it's been an interesting first half of my semester... I kind of just want to skip ahead to when I had the opportunity to audition for my dream role, Lilly, in "The Secret Garden." :) This auditioning experience was probably the best I have ever had in my entire life. The entire day was just full of good auditions and conversations. The initial audition was awesome. Then we auditioned for Dance Company, which compared to last year, I did pretty good! I am by no means a dancer, but I have improved since I first started and it has been fun to see the improvement. Then we were all called back for "Connections" and those callbacks went pretty great. At the end of those I received some sheet music for "How Could I Ever Know?" I just about died from happiness because I then knew I was being called b...

So a lot of stuff has happened this week. School started, auditions, callbacks, cast lists, talked to different people, etc. But my favorite thing about this week would have to be...church today. It's really rare for me to get that burning in my heart. The very, very real feeling of the Spirit. Well today, I had it for a good, long 3 hours. It started with sacrament and went all the way through the last hour of church, which was Relief Society. The speakers in the first hour were fantastic today. In fact, they were amazing and I learned TONS, but the best part was before any of them spake. There was the actual sacrament. The moment the sacrament prayers were said, my heart burned, my eyes started tearing up and I thought about what the sacrament and the Atonement really means to me and I had to fight dang hard to not let those tears fall. For this first time, in a very, very long time, I felt completely clean as I took the sacrament. I felt clean and I realized that I had final...

What a fun word 'why' is. NOT! Well...actually it can be quite the fun word. But if you are trying to ask that question and can't seem to find an answer anywhere? Than 'why' sucks. Last week I posted about how blessed I was/am and I meant every single stinkin' word. Well..the very next day, my life decided it wanted to go crazy. My car, that I have spent over $3,000 dollars on trying to get it to be a reliable car, decided it didn't want to start. I had to get it towed from my boyfriends' house back home! To top that off, the tow man was creepy and kept hitting on me and referred to me as 'that' to the neighbor guy that was checking out my car for me. EW! Well neighbor guy noticed a loose cable connected to my battery and he tightened it and voila! My car started! I was so insanely happy! He said I might want to spend a bit of money on this thing that would make my battery vibrate less so the cable doesn't loosen up again. It was about 10 b...

Ok... I know I have had quite a few of these kinds of posts...but I think it's good to sit there and remember all the ways we are blessed! And the song 'Blessed' by Martina McBride has been stuck in my head for awhile so I figured it would be a good way to start out my blog :) 'I get kissed by the sun Each morning Put my feet on a hardwood floor I get to hear my children laughing Down the hall through the Bedroom door Sometimes I sit on my Front porch swing Just soaking up the day I think to myself, I think to myself This world is a beautiful place I have been blessed And I feel like I’ve found my way I thank God for all I’ve been givenAt the end of every day I have been blessed With so much more than I deserve To be here with the ones That love me To love them so much it hurts I have been blessed Across a crowded room, I know you know what I’m thinking By the way I look at you And when we’re lying in the quiet and No words have to be said ...

So, I've talked about tunnel singing before, but I am now going to do it again. :) This last weekend I went tunnel singing with my boyfriend. It was a lot of fun. I really and honestly love going just to hear those hymns sung so loud. Even if there are only like 20 people there, the tunnel echoes and it sounds like an entire congregation. I love it! And this time the tunnel was stuffed full of people! The first 30 minutes were just fun. We sang songs I liked, I played with the Alto part and did way better than I usually do, and I got to listen to my boyfriend sing (I love his voice, don't tell him that I don't want him to get cocky about it :D). After missionary minute, which was really cool, we sang one of my favorite hymns that I have only sung once before at tunnel singing. 'A Poor Wayfaring Man of Grief.' The last time we sang this song at tunnel singing (the last time I had been there for this song anyway) was when a very, very close friend of mine came for...