Chasing Butterflies

Fake it 'til you make it. This has been my life for at least the past year. Or really just my whole life. :) I had a fun conversation with my older sister the other day. I was updating her a bit on my life and my plans. She mentioned that it was nice to hear that because I'm always so "secretive" with what I am planning on doing next. Not purposefully secretive, I just don't open up about it and am not proactive in telling her/the family on what I am going to do next. I had to stop and just laugh. My older sister always tells me how much she admires me and my ability to make a plan for my life and to follow through. She compliments me on being prepared and ready to take the next responsible step in my life. I always laugh and move on. This time, I decided to tell her my secret (after I finished laughing). I don't open up about my future plans very often because... ready for this... I have no idea what they are. Not a clue. I have Plans A-Z in my head and I a...

My Beautiful Sisters, I am so proud of you and how hard you work and love. I was so scared to be Relief Society President, but now I don't want to be released! It's happening so soon and for a couple months now I’ve been in denial and didn’t think I was ready. I’m still sad. I will still miss serving you as Relief Society President. However, I would be quite thick-headed if I ignored how often I’ve heard in conference talks lately about letting go of callings with grace when you are released. Not to mention President Brotherson and President Doxey’s smooth transition. I will let it go grateful for the opportunity I had to be with you, to get closer to you, and to feel SO much love for each and every single one of you. I noticed when you were there and I noticed when you were gone. I worry and pray for each one of you. I love the love I feel for you and I'm so grateful for how strong and real it is with the love of the Lord running through my veins as strongly as it doe...

Okay.... So a lot of folk have asked about my audition videos and such. I do not like to brag and, in fact, many of my pieces make me quite self-conscious! But as a whole I am proud of what I was able to accomplish in so short a time. So I've attached my videos. Enjoy. :) This is the piece I am probably the most self-conscious about. This is the FIRST piece I have EVER choreographed. The transitions are REALLY rough, most of it is rough, but I am dang proud of it. I haven't really danced in roughly 5 years. I loved dance at Western and I have missed it SO much. I just never felt comfortable or "safe" dancing at SVU. So I didn't. This was great for me to stretch and work those muscles again. So as far from even mediocre as it is, I am incredibly proud and happy about this.   The next four videos are the songs I needed. Two ballads, two upbeat, 3 in the musical theatre genre and one not. First up, If I Were a Bell from Guys and Dolls. This next one...

One of my nearest and dearest friends recently posted a Facebook status about this last year and towards the end she said, “I have loved and lost, I fought and won… My war cry [for 2017] is love, love love.” It made me start reflecting on 2016 in a bit of a different way. Like everyone else in the world, 2016 was REALLY hard. Something in the air I guess. Love, happiness, peace, and purpose were incredibly hard for me to find and believe in. I’ve been letting cynicism paint my perspective on everything that had to do with those. I assumed they would never be mine anymore, especially love. I went home for a little less than 3 weeks for Christmas and New Years so while I was home and on "break" from life, I began to really do some soul searching and finally admitted some things to myself that I had been trying to avoid. #1: I need to reestablish my purpose. I need to find something that gets me out of bed every day and that helps me take the next step in my life. Time ...